16-11-2010 Nothing went right

Why has been everything not going on right way?
God told me everything will be fine, but my career are bored cause got nothing to do.., my company Vantage got no job, very silent, stock market Hang Seng suddenly stumbled on last Friday (12Nov)down to -400 points, husband did not pay me child allowance RM1000/monthly for past 3 months. Now I am very poor, got no money to support Jolie and got no money to renovate my house.

I cried sadly every night by my pillow.. praying and asking for God help.. God help me stay safe and sustain my career in there downtime.. but I need more, I need RM 1000 from my husband to provide my Jolie a good life.. He seems like will not provide me the child allowance, I was wondering if I were to send Jolie to Kindergarten or not?? Furthemore, I could not afford to but good milk or diapers anymore..

I even beg God to give me strike lottery but everytime only dissapointment.. But I have to tell myself I have to live on even my husband don't want us.. To be a begger, I will be for my child future..

Suffering only temporary, happiness also temporary, no suffer, no happiness (Buddha Lord) said..

I have to love myself, money can be earn..love are forever..

27-10-2010 October Diary

Day by day pass by.. everything seems the same.. nothing much change.. my husband YSC has become another person, he has join a group of friend with China woman.. I am very dislike all of them.. but still why the 4 SHITS appear in my life??

I pray daily & beg all the god to give a normal life for me but nothing has been change.. Do I really need to suffer in this life?? Maybe, if not I won't be born as a human.. But why god want me to suffer in LOVE & Marriage?? What have I did wrong?? y husband don't love me and don't support me anymore.. It seems like he want to end the marriage and stop paying me RM1000.. He rather join the 4 SHITs to see Lim Kok Tai (Genting) rather spend time with Jolie.. Jolie is so innocent...

What shall I do now?? I ask & beg 9 Emperor God on 16 Oct but they said the cloud will disappear and sun will arise which means good things will come soon... but 2 weeks already pass by.. YSC still did not pass any money to me.. I am so poor..

My job career here at Vantage more worst.. Vantage has been in silent mode since last 3 months.. I seem free for these 3 mths.. well same to all people too! I am doing nothing everyday.. Just chatting online or doing something simple easy job to pass my life..

Sometime I just ask GOD to take my life and Jolie as well.. Living in human world is a unbearable suffering days!! I am HOPING A MIRACLE TO COME BY... will it??

today 18-August 2010

My boss, Max has increased my salary by RM100 only and designation changed to Document Controller= RM3400/mth. Now already 27 yrs old but salary like shit!! Cannot survive!!

Why in this life I am born to Dog year?? Everything seem never happy-go-lucky?? Till today I never been rich, spend lavishly like queen, can't even travel to Japan or Korea, so poor, can even buy the latest handphone.. Samsung B7722 only appear in my dream which present by someone..

Married to the wrong husband, studying the wrong course which never help me build up my career, working in comfort zone with no challenging, no high pay, no car, no petrol, and more worst no co. trip this year.. Buka puasa dinner also held in canteen only..

Why are the economy so bad?? I want to look for more benefiting job, but nothing good to seem come around. No opportunity even to pass by... Am I holding a USELESS MBA CERT?? I spend RM 30K and this is the repay?? Day-by-day pass, and I am getting older, working in VANTAGE really humdrum.. I wanna CHANGE!! new environment, challenging, high pay JOB!

After work, fetch J, cooking, bathing, eating, watch tv, & sleep and routine again n again next morning.. Marrying wrong husband make my life more USELESS.. Hot-tempered, night-out till next 5 am, no money.. sleeping alone with J every nite. I really cry to my deep heart after he scolded me harshly.. I am really awake that no matter how good I treat him, at the end his attitude will never change.. He never love me, he only talk to J not me, he want sex just to release his sperm and not really want to be with me.. He will yell n look at me like a angry lion if I took his money..

He was jailed with other 15 friends in TPG HQ police station on 12 August 2010 when he entered the 'mahjong' shop in TPG. When I come to bail him out, he proudly said he got many other friends awaiting to bail him out.. WTF!! I am VERY VERY VERY VERY SAD... : ( that he actually want me n J back was because of J and not me..

I really need to look outside the box.. I am still waiting for the BIG opportunity in LOVE, CAREER, MONEY...to come into my LIFE... When will it be??

Job Dysfunction 05-05-2010

I already graduated as an MBA on 9 April 2010 but why am I still working & sitting at the same place for almost 6 years with no change in position!! OMG!! I already inform my boss but just reply me congrat n no further promotion nor salary increment.. Haiz...

That mean this MBA just suck!! unusable! waste my money & time! OR maybe i don't know how to use it? or this MBA do not have any specialization? I am 27 yrs but still as a SECRETARY??? NO WAY!! I NEED TO CHANGE MY JOB ASAP!!! If not I will be laughed and unedrestimate...

Working as secretary does not lead me any future direction. I NEED CHANGES!!!

Oh God, who can help me change?? What position should I apply to?? I am so dull, boredom with this job.. MONEY NOT ENOUGH!! SO CHAM!!! I need challenging job.. but market are so down.. Everyday see my investment keep on down, down , down...

Hey! Wake Up Market!! Should go up up up high to sky!!!
Me wanna find a challenging, high pay, proper, suitable, good position, good boss, safe job n near my house JOB n no bully!! Yeay!!! but... when le???

I am so exhausted!!! bore with this life!! Long time never gone to holiday!!!
Yes!! I need long holiday too.. I wanna go many many places... but... when le?? I should plan now.. 27 yrs is old enough to be mature, work hard + smart n enjoying life!!!

3 April 2010- Life Despair

Today 3 April 2010

After the reunion, I feel he is still the same person (did not change his attitude). He treat me like his housemaid. This is not the like that I requested for?? We just like outsiders from his view.

Ya, his house, his own name but why I'm d one need to clean his house?? If I don't do, he will show his anger, temper. Why do I need to still stay in this relationship? I have my own house. I need freedom.. I don't like to be control.. I fell sick to talk to him..

Both house owner also showing thier dislike to us.. Why?? Are we so irritated?? If yes, just say so, I can just moved out..or he can just send us back.. Why in this world are not fair?? Family member can never be trust.. Brother also same, father also same.. Sienz....

I only have J in my life n PT n PY my best friend.. Others are all enemy..No one can be trusted in this life.. I have to trust my self, I have my own life control.. No one can control me..

Life just suck.. I thought I would have a lovely, loving, caring, rich husband but to my despair, only to have a bad+hot tempered, ill-treat me, bully husband. I don't mind he not rich, but why his attitude can't change?? Through our separation for almost 2 years, he want us back, ok fine.. I give him 1 more chance but thing just don't change.. I fell so sad sad sad...

Experience at YUN NAM- Cheat Part 1

I just can't imagine that Yun Nam Haircare is totally money sucking company and they allow to setup here in Malaysia to cheat people hard earn money. Why can't the Government take action on this damn bloody shit company and get them out from doing such business.

Yun Nam, so called hair specialist centre which is totally bullshit. I was recently one of the victim who fall into their trap. I am actually having a grey hair problem and I have to tri-monhtly dyed my hair and I thought in long term this is not good to my health too. Hence, I called many hair centres which one of them is Yun Nam which they offering free 1 treatment and free consultation. f course, everyone should have choosen Yun Nam.

Upon my 1st appointment, they serve you very well, all young chinese ladies wearing formal, then she using special machine to check that my hair scalp and white hair in small consultation room. Later without giving any price quotation, they ask me directly go 1st free treatment with traditional herbalogy and wrap it in red plastic. Then without washing it, they ask you back into small consultation room and said your hair can be cure and quoted 'What a BIG shock- RM 19,600 for 25 treatment for 3 years. Damn Chi ma kan!

I said 'you didn't even mention any pricing while during in the phone or in consultation room just now'. And she continue saying' you want your hair turn black of course you have to take care. She then continue negotiate till I signed up the cheapest package, about RM1200 installment 12 months. Then only she wash your hair. I should have said no, and not to be psycho by them.

Then the second time on 20 Mar 2010, for 2nd treatment, my consultant (Damn Kym) propose more better solution for my hair. And then I signed up gain for RM 2880 without 2nd thought. After come back, I am really really upset after I saw some blogger post up that Yun Nam cheat.. Now I feel very upset that my RM 4000 has gone with just few bottles of SHIT.. What shall I do now? I should keep this money for my house renovation or my kids education.

Why am I so naive and easily get psycho? How can I get back my RM4000?

Can I file this to Tribunal? If I were to file this, there is no evidence to sue them.