today 18-August 2010
My boss, Max has increased my salary by RM100 only and designation changed to Document Controller= RM3400/mth. Now already 27 yrs old but salary like shit!! Cannot survive!!
Why in this life I am born to Dog year?? Everything seem never happy-go-lucky?? Till today I never been rich, spend lavishly like queen, can't even travel to Japan or Korea, so poor, can even buy the latest handphone.. Samsung B7722 only appear in my dream which present by someone..
Married to the wrong husband, studying the wrong course which never help me build up my career, working in comfort zone with no challenging, no high pay, no car, no petrol, and more worst no co. trip this year.. Buka puasa dinner also held in canteen only..
Why are the economy so bad?? I want to look for more benefiting job, but nothing good to seem come around. No opportunity even to pass by... Am I holding a USELESS MBA CERT?? I spend RM 30K and this is the repay?? Day-by-day pass, and I am getting older, working in VANTAGE really humdrum.. I wanna CHANGE!! new environment, challenging, high pay JOB!
After work, fetch J, cooking, bathing, eating, watch tv, & sleep and routine again n again next morning.. Marrying wrong husband make my life more USELESS.. Hot-tempered, night-out till next 5 am, no money.. sleeping alone with J every nite. I really cry to my deep heart after he scolded me harshly.. I am really awake that no matter how good I treat him, at the end his attitude will never change.. He never love me, he only talk to J not me, he want sex just to release his sperm and not really want to be with me.. He will yell n look at me like a angry lion if I took his money..
He was jailed with other 15 friends in TPG HQ police station on 12 August 2010 when he entered the 'mahjong' shop in TPG. When I come to bail him out, he proudly said he got many other friends awaiting to bail him out.. WTF!! I am VERY VERY VERY VERY SAD... : ( that he actually want me n J back was because of J and not me..
I really need to look outside the box.. I am still waiting for the BIG opportunity in LOVE, CAREER, MONEY...to come into my LIFE... When will it be??
