Vantage is longer busy.. and I got nothing to do. Everyday come to work with no job/task assign to me.. Why would I get the paid when I got nothing to do? Everyday check yahoo mail, facebook, browse internet, listen to music. My job scope never expand. For 7 years I work, the career path still same. Why would I need to study MBA when this cert has no value? Why would my cert only worth same salary with non-MBA?
My career path has gone stagnant. Salary been the same. VSW is getting smaller in size, many people leaving, Nson, Boon, Theng, SC Long and now Lum. Should I leave or stay in VSW? VSW only think about their on property but not long term business.
What I need now;
1) Job challenging- important task- complete project
2) Managerial Level
3) High pay 5k-6k
The purpose study MBA - to position myself to grow career wise like I never had before in my current companies.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
today blog 03-03-2011
In this new year, I feel there is change in my life direction. My boss, Max has promoted me to Contracts Administrator,upgrade to L1, increment RM300 and bonus 2.5 mth. At least, he seen my MBA cert value.
My husband, YSC has change and treat good to me not like a monster anymore. Now I learn compromise and argue smartly and keep to the point, Don't fight with the aim of hurting each other's feelings but by resolving the issue or even agree to disagree.
Unfortunately, my health was no good. In 25 Dec 2010, I felt stone in my womb. Day by day it getting bigger. I quickly go to Poliklinik Reiki Baba. Dr Dev advised me to go for specialist like Aruna or Pantai. I decided go Aruna on 3 Jan 11, Dr Sokhdave scan and said it is very big fibriod. On same day afternoon, me and Rov go to Sime Darby Medical Centre, Subang Jaya, Dr Tan Teck Sin scan and said it is a right ovarian cyst and not fibroid. On 7Jan11, we went to KL Dr Roopi and she said is fibroid too. On 8 Jan11, we went to Klinik Dr Lim Too Sen in Meru, and he give me some LMD capsule and chinese herb medicine. On 11 Jan 11, I went to SDMC for MRI scan and the result is cyst likely form right ovary about 9x9x19cm and some firoibs. After I consume for 1.5 mth of Dr LTS, I felt the fibroid getting smaller.
Till today, I can feel the fibroid sometime small ans sometime big, maybe when want to getting period.
Jolie has entered the kindergarten. Teacher Miza say she learn thing very fast. and even learn 'Amin' before eat time.. After I told her that we pray Kuan Yin Ma, she stop 'Amin'.
I even book to Bangkok & Pattaya trip going on 12 Jun and back 15 Jun with all my family and YSC. Now, my financial not so good due to major renovation and house furniture move in. My house still vacant. I want to rent out to earn more. but afraid the tenant treat badly to my house.
Rov gonna laser on 28 May 11 but she got Mui Fat paid for the laser.. So good..
My husband, YSC has change and treat good to me not like a monster anymore. Now I learn compromise and argue smartly and keep to the point, Don't fight with the aim of hurting each other's feelings but by resolving the issue or even agree to disagree.
Unfortunately, my health was no good. In 25 Dec 2010, I felt stone in my womb. Day by day it getting bigger. I quickly go to Poliklinik Reiki Baba. Dr Dev advised me to go for specialist like Aruna or Pantai. I decided go Aruna on 3 Jan 11, Dr Sokhdave scan and said it is very big fibriod. On same day afternoon, me and Rov go to Sime Darby Medical Centre, Subang Jaya, Dr Tan Teck Sin scan and said it is a right ovarian cyst and not fibroid. On 7Jan11, we went to KL Dr Roopi and she said is fibroid too. On 8 Jan11, we went to Klinik Dr Lim Too Sen in Meru, and he give me some LMD capsule and chinese herb medicine. On 11 Jan 11, I went to SDMC for MRI scan and the result is cyst likely form right ovary about 9x9x19cm and some firoibs. After I consume for 1.5 mth of Dr LTS, I felt the fibroid getting smaller.
Till today, I can feel the fibroid sometime small ans sometime big, maybe when want to getting period.
Jolie has entered the kindergarten. Teacher Miza say she learn thing very fast. and even learn 'Amin' before eat time.. After I told her that we pray Kuan Yin Ma, she stop 'Amin'.
I even book to Bangkok & Pattaya trip going on 12 Jun and back 15 Jun with all my family and YSC. Now, my financial not so good due to major renovation and house furniture move in. My house still vacant. I want to rent out to earn more. but afraid the tenant treat badly to my house.
Rov gonna laser on 28 May 11 but she got Mui Fat paid for the laser.. So good..
Monday, November 15, 2010
16-11-2010 Nothing went right
Why has been everything not going on right way?
God told me everything will be fine, but my career are bored cause got nothing to do.., my company Vantage got no job, very silent, stock market Hang Seng suddenly stumbled on last Friday (12Nov)down to -400 points, husband did not pay me child allowance RM1000/monthly for past 3 months. Now I am very poor, got no money to support Jolie and got no money to renovate my house.
I cried sadly every night by my pillow.. praying and asking for God help.. God help me stay safe and sustain my career in there downtime.. but I need more, I need RM 1000 from my husband to provide my Jolie a good life.. He seems like will not provide me the child allowance, I was wondering if I were to send Jolie to Kindergarten or not?? Furthemore, I could not afford to but good milk or diapers anymore..
I even beg God to give me strike lottery but everytime only dissapointment.. But I have to tell myself I have to live on even my husband don't want us.. To be a begger, I will be for my child future..
Suffering only temporary, happiness also temporary, no suffer, no happiness (Buddha Lord) said..
I have to love myself, money can be earn..love are forever..
God told me everything will be fine, but my career are bored cause got nothing to do.., my company Vantage got no job, very silent, stock market Hang Seng suddenly stumbled on last Friday (12Nov)down to -400 points, husband did not pay me child allowance RM1000/monthly for past 3 months. Now I am very poor, got no money to support Jolie and got no money to renovate my house.
I cried sadly every night by my pillow.. praying and asking for God help.. God help me stay safe and sustain my career in there downtime.. but I need more, I need RM 1000 from my husband to provide my Jolie a good life.. He seems like will not provide me the child allowance, I was wondering if I were to send Jolie to Kindergarten or not?? Furthemore, I could not afford to but good milk or diapers anymore..
I even beg God to give me strike lottery but everytime only dissapointment.. But I have to tell myself I have to live on even my husband don't want us.. To be a begger, I will be for my child future..
Suffering only temporary, happiness also temporary, no suffer, no happiness (Buddha Lord) said..
I have to love myself, money can be earn..love are forever..
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
27-10-2010 October Diary
Day by day pass by.. everything seems the same.. nothing much change.. my husband YSC has become another person, he has join a group of friend with China woman.. I am very dislike all of them.. but still why the 4 SHITS appear in my life??
I pray daily & beg all the god to give a normal life for me but nothing has been change.. Do I really need to suffer in this life?? Maybe, if not I won't be born as a human.. But why god want me to suffer in LOVE & Marriage?? What have I did wrong?? y husband don't love me and don't support me anymore.. It seems like he want to end the marriage and stop paying me RM1000.. He rather join the 4 SHITs to see Lim Kok Tai (Genting) rather spend time with Jolie.. Jolie is so innocent...
What shall I do now?? I ask & beg 9 Emperor God on 16 Oct but they said the cloud will disappear and sun will arise which means good things will come soon... but 2 weeks already pass by.. YSC still did not pass any money to me.. I am so poor..
My job career here at Vantage more worst.. Vantage has been in silent mode since last 3 months.. I seem free for these 3 mths.. well same to all people too! I am doing nothing everyday.. Just chatting online or doing something simple easy job to pass my life..
Sometime I just ask GOD to take my life and Jolie as well.. Living in human world is a unbearable suffering days!! I am HOPING A MIRACLE TO COME BY... will it??
I pray daily & beg all the god to give a normal life for me but nothing has been change.. Do I really need to suffer in this life?? Maybe, if not I won't be born as a human.. But why god want me to suffer in LOVE & Marriage?? What have I did wrong?? y husband don't love me and don't support me anymore.. It seems like he want to end the marriage and stop paying me RM1000.. He rather join the 4 SHITs to see Lim Kok Tai (Genting) rather spend time with Jolie.. Jolie is so innocent...
What shall I do now?? I ask & beg 9 Emperor God on 16 Oct but they said the cloud will disappear and sun will arise which means good things will come soon... but 2 weeks already pass by.. YSC still did not pass any money to me.. I am so poor..
My job career here at Vantage more worst.. Vantage has been in silent mode since last 3 months.. I seem free for these 3 mths.. well same to all people too! I am doing nothing everyday.. Just chatting online or doing something simple easy job to pass my life..
Sometime I just ask GOD to take my life and Jolie as well.. Living in human world is a unbearable suffering days!! I am HOPING A MIRACLE TO COME BY... will it??
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
today 18-August 2010
My boss, Max has increased my salary by RM100 only and designation changed to Document Controller= RM3400/mth. Now already 27 yrs old but salary like shit!! Cannot survive!!
Why in this life I am born to Dog year?? Everything seem never happy-go-lucky?? Till today I never been rich, spend lavishly like queen, can't even travel to Japan or Korea, so poor, can even buy the latest handphone.. Samsung B7722 only appear in my dream which present by someone..
Married to the wrong husband, studying the wrong course which never help me build up my career, working in comfort zone with no challenging, no high pay, no car, no petrol, and more worst no co. trip this year.. Buka puasa dinner also held in canteen only..
Why are the economy so bad?? I want to look for more benefiting job, but nothing good to seem come around. No opportunity even to pass by... Am I holding a USELESS MBA CERT?? I spend RM 30K and this is the repay?? Day-by-day pass, and I am getting older, working in VANTAGE really humdrum.. I wanna CHANGE!! new environment, challenging, high pay JOB!
After work, fetch J, cooking, bathing, eating, watch tv, & sleep and routine again n again next morning.. Marrying wrong husband make my life more USELESS.. Hot-tempered, night-out till next 5 am, no money.. sleeping alone with J every nite. I really cry to my deep heart after he scolded me harshly.. I am really awake that no matter how good I treat him, at the end his attitude will never change.. He never love me, he only talk to J not me, he want sex just to release his sperm and not really want to be with me.. He will yell n look at me like a angry lion if I took his money..
He was jailed with other 15 friends in TPG HQ police station on 12 August 2010 when he entered the 'mahjong' shop in TPG. When I come to bail him out, he proudly said he got many other friends awaiting to bail him out.. WTF!! I am VERY VERY VERY VERY SAD... : ( that he actually want me n J back was because of J and not me..
I really need to look outside the box.. I am still waiting for the BIG opportunity in LOVE, CAREER, MONEY...to come into my LIFE... When will it be??
My boss, Max has increased my salary by RM100 only and designation changed to Document Controller= RM3400/mth. Now already 27 yrs old but salary like shit!! Cannot survive!!
Why in this life I am born to Dog year?? Everything seem never happy-go-lucky?? Till today I never been rich, spend lavishly like queen, can't even travel to Japan or Korea, so poor, can even buy the latest handphone.. Samsung B7722 only appear in my dream which present by someone..
Married to the wrong husband, studying the wrong course which never help me build up my career, working in comfort zone with no challenging, no high pay, no car, no petrol, and more worst no co. trip this year.. Buka puasa dinner also held in canteen only..
Why are the economy so bad?? I want to look for more benefiting job, but nothing good to seem come around. No opportunity even to pass by... Am I holding a USELESS MBA CERT?? I spend RM 30K and this is the repay?? Day-by-day pass, and I am getting older, working in VANTAGE really humdrum.. I wanna CHANGE!! new environment, challenging, high pay JOB!
After work, fetch J, cooking, bathing, eating, watch tv, & sleep and routine again n again next morning.. Marrying wrong husband make my life more USELESS.. Hot-tempered, night-out till next 5 am, no money.. sleeping alone with J every nite. I really cry to my deep heart after he scolded me harshly.. I am really awake that no matter how good I treat him, at the end his attitude will never change.. He never love me, he only talk to J not me, he want sex just to release his sperm and not really want to be with me.. He will yell n look at me like a angry lion if I took his money..
He was jailed with other 15 friends in TPG HQ police station on 12 August 2010 when he entered the 'mahjong' shop in TPG. When I come to bail him out, he proudly said he got many other friends awaiting to bail him out.. WTF!! I am VERY VERY VERY VERY SAD... : ( that he actually want me n J back was because of J and not me..
I really need to look outside the box.. I am still waiting for the BIG opportunity in LOVE, CAREER, MONEY...to come into my LIFE... When will it be??
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Job Dysfunction 05-05-2010
I already graduated as an MBA on 9 April 2010 but why am I still working & sitting at the same place for almost 6 years with no change in position!! OMG!! I already inform my boss but just reply me congrat n no further promotion nor salary increment.. Haiz...
That mean this MBA just suck!! unusable! waste my money & time! OR maybe i don't know how to use it? or this MBA do not have any specialization? I am 27 yrs but still as a SECRETARY??? NO WAY!! I NEED TO CHANGE MY JOB ASAP!!! If not I will be laughed and unedrestimate...
Working as secretary does not lead me any future direction. I NEED CHANGES!!!
Oh God, who can help me change?? What position should I apply to?? I am so dull, boredom with this job.. MONEY NOT ENOUGH!! SO CHAM!!! I need challenging job.. but market are so down.. Everyday see my investment keep on down, down , down...
Hey! Wake Up Market!! Should go up up up high to sky!!!
Me wanna find a challenging, high pay, proper, suitable, good position, good boss, safe job n near my house JOB n no bully!! Yeay!!! but... when le???
I am so exhausted!!! bore with this life!! Long time never gone to holiday!!!
Yes!! I need long holiday too.. I wanna go many many places... but... when le?? I should plan now.. 27 yrs is old enough to be mature, work hard + smart n enjoying life!!!
That mean this MBA just suck!! unusable! waste my money & time! OR maybe i don't know how to use it? or this MBA do not have any specialization? I am 27 yrs but still as a SECRETARY??? NO WAY!! I NEED TO CHANGE MY JOB ASAP!!! If not I will be laughed and unedrestimate...
Working as secretary does not lead me any future direction. I NEED CHANGES!!!
Oh God, who can help me change?? What position should I apply to?? I am so dull, boredom with this job.. MONEY NOT ENOUGH!! SO CHAM!!! I need challenging job.. but market are so down.. Everyday see my investment keep on down, down , down...
Hey! Wake Up Market!! Should go up up up high to sky!!!
Me wanna find a challenging, high pay, proper, suitable, good position, good boss, safe job n near my house JOB n no bully!! Yeay!!! but... when le???
I am so exhausted!!! bore with this life!! Long time never gone to holiday!!!
Yes!! I need long holiday too.. I wanna go many many places... but... when le?? I should plan now.. 27 yrs is old enough to be mature, work hard + smart n enjoying life!!!
Friday, April 2, 2010
3 April 2010- Life Despair
Today 3 April 2010
After the reunion, I feel he is still the same person (did not change his attitude). He treat me like his housemaid. This is not the like that I requested for?? We just like outsiders from his view.
Ya, his house, his own name but why I'm d one need to clean his house?? If I don't do, he will show his anger, temper. Why do I need to still stay in this relationship? I have my own house. I need freedom.. I don't like to be control.. I fell sick to talk to him..
Both house owner also showing thier dislike to us.. Why?? Are we so irritated?? If yes, just say so, I can just moved out..or he can just send us back.. Why in this world are not fair?? Family member can never be trust.. Brother also same, father also same.. Sienz....
I only have J in my life n PT n PY my best friend.. Others are all enemy..No one can be trusted in this life.. I have to trust my self, I have my own life control.. No one can control me..
Life just suck.. I thought I would have a lovely, loving, caring, rich husband but to my despair, only to have a bad+hot tempered, ill-treat me, bully husband. I don't mind he not rich, but why his attitude can't change?? Through our separation for almost 2 years, he want us back, ok fine.. I give him 1 more chance but thing just don't change.. I fell so sad sad sad...
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